So I decided to go to bed and think about it some more today. I just can't decide. It would be so much easier to just sign up for a few triathlons and 1 or 2 half marathons, but easier isn't always better. It doesn't get me excited or nervous and I think I need that to get motivated.

Last night I had 1.5 hours to myself. My husband and 2 kids (ages 4 and 5) were out of the house and I was left with all this free time. So, I did 3.5 loads of laundry, vacuumed upstairs and downstairs and organized parts of the house. Before I knew it they were back in the door. I got my sweethearts ready for bed, did a little reading with them, and then off to dreamland they went. After that, I did 2 hours of continuing education work to keep my board certified pharmacy status. Then... the moment I had been waiting for all day, I got to open my book and lay down and read. I am about half way through "The Art of Fielding". It's a great book. I love reading at the end of a long day, just relaxes me.

I forgot to post my workout yesterday. It was 4 miles of speed work (10 min easy, 4 X (3 min fast X 3 min easy; 10 min easy). I dread speed workouts which is why I must do them.

This morning I got to wake up and see my oldest off to kindergarten and then play with my 4 year old until Preschool. I drove him there and now I am going to work for a few hours before I have to pick him up and then pick his brother up and then go to parent/teacher conferences. Somewhere during this busy day I'll fit in a 6 mile run (1 mile easy, 3 tempo, 2 easy).

To click or not to click

I've been thinking about signing up for a half ironman race this summer. But should I? It is such a commitment. But I am always more dedicated when I have something to train for in the future.

Last fall I ran my first marathon. I loved it! Well, I loved raced day (all 4 hours and 21 minutes of it:) I loved the pride and confidence that came with finishing the actual marathon. I wasn't over the moon in love with the 5:00AM endurance runs on the weekends. But it did keep me in shape and more disiplined over the summer months.

I originally wanted to sign up for another marathon in the spring, but I was sick for 3 months. After the October marathon I was hit with pneumonia not once but 3 times (the last time was double, nice). Pneumonia is tough on anyone, but I also have asthma. I literally felt every breathe I took, and most often was fighting for it. Finally in January, I was able to start working out again. I've spent this month slowly getting back into a workout routine. But I am no where near where I used to be. I was running half marathons without a worry in the world of finishing. Now I am having to walk during 5 mile runs, and the run is barely a jog.

So, I'm thinking the marathon in May, might not be doable. But a half ironman in July? I think I can be up and running by then. I have been doing triathlons for 11 years. The longest one I have done up until now was olympic length (0.75/28/6). It took me 3 hours. And that was my goal and I was ecstatic. And...I was one of the last people to cross the finish line. So I checked the results of last years half ironman event and I guestimated my times and I will be in the last group to finish (guessing I could make it in 6 hours). It does bother me. It somehow makes it feel like less of an accomplishment. But why? Am I being silly? I will have still completed a 70.3 mile race, why should I rain on my own parade.

So I am left here going back and forth, to click or not to click yes on the registration link.